Inspiration: Psalms 139
You have searched me Lord, and you know me well.
You actually know me better than I know myself.
You were a part of my past when I made the best and worst of decisions,
and you are a part of my present guiding my steps in your will.
You will be a part of my future, yet my days are unknown.
You alone God, are my future, my everything. You are my ALL.
“I’m sold out for you Lord!” That’s what I tell the world.
But the truth of the matter is, I forget you in the simplest of tasks,
and I put you on the back-burner when life seems to go too fast.
All is well when you’re at the forefront of my mind,
but is that fair to you to accept my crumbs when my mind is occupied?
“How can I treat you this way?” is what plagues my mind.
You knew and know the error of my ways – yet you’re always there,
with your everlasting mercy and your saving grace.
So please hear me when I say, “I’m sorry Lord, will you forgive my selfish ways?”
Because you’re it for me, no matter how much my heart and mind disagree,
time after time and day after day.
If I’m being honest, knowing you at times is all too much for me.
I think, “What am I to do with this knowledge?”…
“This knowledge of someone who loves me unconditionally”.
So I run…I hide…yet you always find me and open my eyes.
You show me there is no place too high or low,
and that your love will always take care of my woes.
As I struggle against the tide and wonder If I’ll be able to make it,
you pull me back into your loving embrace and whisper:
You can do this.
I already know you will.
Because I made you.
I made them.
I already designed your victory.
So I praise you Lord because I am fearfully and wonderfully made,
Your works are wonderful. I know that full well.
I know that officially, I am yours and you are mine.
I’m ready to take your hand and be guided to my everlasting life.