One-Sided Conversations (Pt 2)

PART 2 of 4 –  A Bad Decision On Two Legs

One-sided conversations is a series of (combined) one-sided dialogue I’ve had over the years with various people in my life after my rededication to Christ. Some appreciated my renewal of faith and others judged and ridiculed me, but throughout it all, I held on to my faith because I knew that God had a greater purpose for my life.

Sometimes when you decide to narrow your focus on God, you’ll have to leave some people behind. Why? Because living the rest of your life for the glory of God will require a change in priorities, schedules and relationships. You thought committing your life to Christ was hard. Nope, now the hard part begins.

By sharing my experiences, I hope someone out there discovers that we’ve all been there and you’ll get through this too. Just keeping marching towards your purpose, love others, study his truth and you’ll receive your reward in eternity. Always remember, in the end, your friends can’t vouch for you with God. God will only ask YOU what you did with your time on earth. So don’t worry about everyone else…make YOUR time count.

I hear a knock at the door and immediately regret looking through the peephole. One of my bad decisions is staring back at me and he doesn’t look too happy. 

I take a deep breath, and turn the doorknob. 
He says with an in genuine smile: 
I don’t understand why you’re not answering my calls.
You once loved the sound of my voice and the feel of my arms.
Did something happen? Are you okay?
What’s that in your hand?
I can see it’s a book, but what does it say?

Yeah, Yeah. I get it. I’ve heard it before.
You can stop. I get your point.
Where did all of this come from?
You were fine just a few weeks ago.
You’re the one who wanted to start this and now I’m invested.
Why do you get to decide how and when we end?
Do I not have a say-so in this?

You saw me where? I wasn’t with anyone else.
Are you sure it was me? How do you know?
I do like you, but I’m not ready to settle down.
What’s wrong with what we have? We’re just having fun, right?
Why does everyone need labels and titles?
Alright – Alright. If I must, then I guess I can go that route.

No, I can’t go with you on Sunday. Nor Wednesday too.
I have things to do. I have places to be.
I work 12 hours days and I don’t have time for church – and neither should you!
God knows my heart. He hears my prayers.
That’s enough for me, but you do your thing.
I’ll be here when you get back. Don’t let me stand in your way.
What? What’s so funny?
I am listening to you. I hear every word.
I don’t agree with it, but I’ll play this game.
It’s like I said, I’ve been here before and I know how to win and get my way.

So this is it? You’re going to walk away?
You’ve found your religion and the man upstairs says I’m not okay.
You know I’m the best thing in your life,
and no scripture is going to set you right.
God may replace me and he may even change you into a better person,
but you repeatedly sinned with me. How are you so sure you’re forgiven?
Just wait and see. You’ll come crawling back to me soon enough.
I give you a few days. Hell, I’ll even give you a month.
Don’t forget, I know you. I know the real you.
Not this version of you everyone else is viewing.

Oh it’s not an act, huh?
Yeah, Okay. I hear you boo.
I don’t have time for this. I came over here to relax.
You’re just another rededicated Christian with a memory erased,
and I’ll be back.

I close the door, and slide to the floor.
My dogs crawl into my lap and the tears begin to fall.
Partly out of shame, but mostly out of relief.
It’s over now. One-Two-Three…Breathe. 

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