Inspiration: Psalms 139
You have searched me Lord, and you know me well.
You actually know me better than I know myself.
You were a part of my past when I made the best and worst of decisions,
and you are a part of my present guiding my steps in your will.
You will be a part of my future, yet my days are unknown.
You alone God, are my future, my everything. You are my ALL.
The final conversation!
This is part 3 of the “one-sided conversation” series. I know I said I would have four parts, but I was able to say everything in three. If you have not read parts one and two, please read those first before continuing below.
As I sit on the edge of my bed contemplating how I got to this point…
A little voice inside of me says:
You say you know me, but I say you knew me.
You’re the people I chose to be a part of my life,
but every choice has a consequence and I’m tired of the fight.
Try this at home! The next time you’re upset about what’s going on in your life, take a moment to think about all the things you have to be thankful for. It’s a simple task, yet so many people don’t do it. I always find it amazing how my spirits are always lifted when I stop to think about God’s grace and mercy in my life. He’s brought me through so much and has completely changed my life for the better, but I would not have known how blessed I am, had I not stopped to think about it. That’s what this exercise is. A pause on your life to think about everything you’ve been through, everything you have and much more. So let’ try it out… Read more
My life is not perfect, but it’s MY life.
It’s full of lessons, trials, joy, tribulations, grief, adventure, sadness, confusion, pain and so much more.
I have tested murky waters with the tip of my toe, and other days I have swam in the deep end.
I have loved the wrong people, and shunned the right people.
I have jumped into black pits of misery, and I have climbed the tallest ladders to joy.
I have laid eyes on beauty rival of my wildest dreams, and breathed in air so pure – life seemed like a dream.
I have learned that good doesn’t always mean right, and pain always equals hope.
Perseverance and I are on a first name basis, but history seems to always repeat itself.
I have eaten the forbidden fruit, and let the sweet nectar blind my eyes from all that is good.
I have ungratefully escaped death’s grip; and foolishly tested him as well.
I have received love to rival the most infamous heroines, but it never seems to outweigh the black love the penetrates your mind and body.
I shouldn’t be writing this today, but I’m here. Why?
Because of Him.